I remember so much about my life. From the beginning, to now and into the future even. I can’t say how much control I have of my thoughts, although I have become more mindful about observing them. I have begun to train and rewire my brain and body with conscious effort. The trouble is, now I know that the bodymind can store memories and emotions. Did you know the heart thinks?
During my self-healing journey, I have been on a mission to purge my life of everything that no longer serves a purpose in my future. I have been restoring my house and routines into order. As well as my mental space and heart wounds. This, my friends, was the hard part.
A new kind of emotional awareness of my mental patterns started to take place. As I worked with my body’s energies, I started to really notice in my meditations where exactly i was hurting. When I drop into my own little world of calm and connected meditation, I scan my body. I notice the little uncomfortable places, my posture, the pull of gravity, and any soreness. Some of these areas, I note to address later on. Others, I know are pains and weaknesses I have had for a very long time. Why is that?
I was having an inner battle with my ego, my dark side, traumatic memories in my conscious awareness. The more I focused on one area of pain or weakness, the more I began to think about these negative thoughts and memories. Like I said earlier, you only have so much control of your thoughts. My heart hurt, real bad.Continue reading “Emotional Healing From Feelings Buried Alive”